Saturday, November 14, 2009

Mistakes from the past

The guilt of doing something wrong in the past, does hurt us sometimes in the present. It is something which had gone wrong, that you could have repaired well now as compared to then. As someone reminds you of those things, you start remembering it. Everything passes in front of you like a flash. You forget the things on hand. Just that brief amount of time of thought can spoil your whole day sometimes.

The past is more powerful than it looks like. The past carries vital experience that can be used in the present. Something similar happening can be tackled well with the experience we had before. But it also has its ugly face, which can turn the tide in today's context of things. It will spoil your mood, make you nervous or may be make you feel irritated on yourself.

Courtesy: Picture taken from google search!!

Yes, it depends from person to person. Some people don't even remember things, some don't like remembering things. Some people just chuck it. For me I tend to get bogged down by things like this. My mood changes and I totally feel miserable. Guilt of doing bad in something in the past, hurts me.

I have tired lot of things to keep me busy during such an outburst of thoughts and not give food for it. But somehow, I find myself pondering at darkest canopy of room. Getting lost in the thoughts and giving no heed to what was happening in front of me. Me being a Pisces, getting moody was by nature.

Last week, I had one such days again. Remembering some old friend, with whom I have no contact now. The way we went different ways, was not satisfying. I could have done much better to keep in touch with that person, inspite of having a not so good relationship. I finally broke the jinx of guilt. I told myself that, I am a human being and I am allowed to make mistakes. No one is perfect. Gone are those days. Feeling guilty about it, will not resolve anything today.

I changed the way I felt about the whole thing. I felt great about leaving things behind, especially the guilt feeling. I did a mistake, but I can forgive myself even though my friend could not. I felt better within. I am a changed man now. :) :) What an idea sirji!! :) :)


NIM said...

the past does haunt us one time or another...every1 has done things in the past that they regret later in life...but u should not forget that it is the past that we have grown has thought us what we know there is nothing to be upset of and a lot to learn from... :)
what an idea sirji!!! hehehe :P

LAN said...

very true man!! just that, i could not do things normally!! now i am okay!! :) :) thanks for stopping by!!

brin.tralala said...

i need posts like this one..thanks :)

LAN said...

hahha; thanks!!

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Dani said...

hi, Lan! thanks for the visit. we speak portuguese here, but english can help us.

nice that you found my blog by Gayatri mantra! I heard an read that is sacred, one of the most important in India, and it is good to confirm that with an young hindu! :)

this one is really beautiful in the voice of Deva Premal and I am practicing every day now. (feels good)

LAN said...

@Dani: It is very powerful to keep your mind very calm!! :) it helps; you have a nice blog; i translated ur page to english :)

AK said...

I agree totally. Sometimes it more important to forgive urself than being forgiven. It helps in getting on with life...a very thoughtful post. I am following ofcourse. How can I leave such a nice blog without following!

LAN said...

@AK: Thanks a lot!! I really could not forgive myself before, now I have changed the way I think!! :) :)
Thanks for following!!

Nyx said...

Well, I have gone through many such days in the past. Once you know how to break the jinx, as you rightly did, it makes you feel better for sure. But rethinking about such experiences teaches you not to repeat such mistakes in future so that it doesn't get you into a haunting past ever again! :)

Daman Tiwana said...

I can understand!
Hate that feeling